2020, 26, COVID-19
“Mary said, ‘Behold, I am the handmaid of the Lord.
May it be done to me according to your word.’” – Luke 1:38
There is an old saying that goes, “If you want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans.”
I think now more than ever we all know how it feels to see our plans go out the window – and maybe even our second or third draft of those plans followed right behind. Many of us are probably on plan E or F now.
Yet while plans are being cancelled, people are being quarantined, and life as we know it has flipped on its head, the world just keeps on spinning.
Yesterday was the Feast of the Annunciation, the day Catholics celebrate Mary’s glorious Fiat. The “yes” that brought our Savior Jesus Christ into the world. Mary was young and unmarried, betrothed to an older man she did not choose for herself. Meeting an angel and getting pregnant were definitely not on her to-do list. But she said yes. Unselfishly and trusting fully in God and His plan for her, she said yes. She knew what was at stake, and she was probably scared, but she said yes.
I don’t think it was any coincidence that I was born on the Feast of the Annunciation, which was also definitely not the plan. I was born by emergency c-section 6 weeks before my due date.
For a little less than a year now, I’ve made Fiat my motto, my word to live by, and if I am being honest… it. is. so. hard. I’ve got faith, sure. Pixie dust, of course! But trust? Trust is hard. Especially, sometimes, trust in God and His plan.
My plan for years, before I even got married, was to have my first baby by time I was 25. Yesterday, I turned 26, in isolation (#socialdistancing). Last year, shortly after I turned 25, my husband and I decided to start actively trying for a baby. As Catholics, we practice Natural Family Planning and have always been open to children. Since I have been tracking my cycles for several years, I honestly thought this would be pretty easy. Well, it has not been. Again, my plans have been foiled.
Even before this long journey of trying to conceive, I have struggled to trust God’s plans for me. Life hasn’t always moved at the pace or in the direction I would like it to go. But this journey has really tested my faith and trust more than anything. And now it is being tested even more during this time of the coronavirus, a pandemic unlike anything any of us have ever experienced in our lifetimes.
I think this pandemic can teach us to really appreciate what true Fiat is and how to live it out in our lives. Now more than ever we need to put our faith and trust in God. Something that many Catholics online have been saying, and that I’d like to echo here, is that this is the time to become a saint. We need to trust God and let this time of suffering and isolation work in our lives for good and make us saints. This is the time to work on ourselves, our prayers lives, our faith, and help each other out. The only way we can get through this is by sacrificing our plans to save others.
I have faith that the world will come out on the other side of this a better place, with more love and appreciation for our neighbors, a little more selflessness, and maybe a few more saints.
I hope you can use this pandemic to practice Fiat in your own life. And know, I am praying for you.
“And if not, He is still good.” – Daniel 3:18
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart.” – Proverbs 3:5